I've seen us lead 4 nil there and not win. I've seen us lead in the cup but get beat and if there was any consolation (for me personally tonight) is that I don't have to face the journey home as I missed the game.
City led through Don Cowie. I was nipping out in the car. Yes. After a 5 min stop in the local Tescos I get back in the car to find we are 2 - 1 down.
Hearing Earnie hit the post gave me a tad of hope but the general feeling was that we were getting comfortably beat and there was no way back.
As I did anything but listen to the radio we made it 2 - 2 through Peter Whittingham. A sneaky look at my Twitter feed revealed we'd gone 3 - 2 ahead. Clock ticking down, now my senses were all over the place. My heart was beating and thinking victory but my head was telling me to expect the kick in the nuts.
Boosh, a strike to one nut made it 3 - 3 and the knockout blow floored me with a 4th for Peterborough and we had lost the game.
Reasons to be optimistic? Never say die when the game was slipping away and getting into a winning position. Reasons to be pessimistic, more injuries, the ability to throw away a defeat when a few mins away from the 90 and the lack of depth in the squad. Gestede injured, Miller injured, Parkin out on loan, Earnie is our only striker and he was subbed tonight.
It's not helping when mates are telling me the penalty was contentious and the winning goal looked like offside.
This game is supposed to make me happy. To be my pleasure. If I'm honest it makes me an emotional wreck.
Roll on Saturday and lets hope we can beat Barnsley to make everything right in the world again.